Hello.
my first post in 2018 and this year is about to end.
this year has been so fast. and sad. and overwhelming at the same time.
i have been laughing, crying, and got involved in a minor accident , and also fall in love at the same year.
so nothing actually change. except for the fact that im waiting for the text back? kind of?
So, is anyone reading this? If there is, i want to let you know that im okay. we are okay. this year is about to end yes?
Many things I have learnt this year, first is never, never turn your back on your dream. Because I did, and i suffered like there's no tomorrow because everything is hard, especially when i didn't like what i am doing now, what i am studying now. so never, never ever turn your back on your dream. Keep sleeping.
and then, i learnt that people don't actually like me when I'm sad. so they run away. that's okay because i don't like your existence either. so we equal yes?
ah we can do good every days and people wont still like us and i guess that's life. I mean if there is only good people in this world, where is the dramas? I love sipping teas and I know you do too.
you know, people can be damaged by words aight? so, for 2019 lets all watch our words and be kind. May God bless us.
and... lets move to the next very important thing.
i told you, i fall in love.
i actually forget how it actually feels.
to be very honest, last i fell in love was when i was 9 or 10? call it as puppy love or whatever but that thing lasted till i was 16 and that shit hurt. like really hurt kind of the demon-suck-my-soul-and-burn-it-to-ashes kinda hurt. so it reaaaaallly hurt as it was an unrequited love.
now I'm 22 and in love again. and preparing myself for emotional roller coaster ride. I don't know what to do, so I ended up becoming a stuttering mess i swear to God why am i like this, i don't even know why. It kinda hurt. I hate this. My closest friends said that, it might be mutual considering the positive feedback from the other side but then......I am much of a coward to confront him and say the words. but I'm gonna be okay right?
so that's it. i mean if you wanna know more details...... hit me up if you have my number.
May this year ends well for me, and for those who are reading this. lets try be more positive and better person yes? being negative can get you sick, damaging your soul and ruining that pretty face. so lets be positive.
have courage and be kind :)
So finally i decided to get my lazy self to continue writing.
And here is my story...
I was an ordinary girl with an
ordinary face, a plump body and not so genius girl. Everything was fine and
cool and all those happy typical moments that you saw in the movies like I was
a girl with loads of foods, funny friends and good grade, well at least i
didn’t fail you know. So I considered my grade is good, not that great but it
was good enough to avoid me from torturing my ears with my parents’ nagging.
And then one day I decided to fall in love.
I remembered that first time I
met him. I was 10 years old at that time. Too young to fall in love. Too young too dumb to realised. I know. I
was sitting at the back of the classroom and he sat at the front of the
classroom. I was talking with my friends, talking about that song that went
viral during those days. That frickin ketchup song. So I was dancing, moving my
head, my hands and my whole body following the steps of the ketchup’s dance and
he was looking straight at me with an idiotic smile on his face. He was looking
straight at me and with the grin on his face, he followed my dance and
continued talking with his friends. MY HEART FELL AT THAT MOMENT, my stupid
little heart decided to fall in love. That was my first memory of him.
So, we currently had finished our
mid term examination and I got first place. The homeroom teacher, Ms. Rose tend to
fix our sits according to ranks. Since I got the first place, she put me in
front of the classroom..and in front of the teacher’s desk. Damn I hate that
sit so much because you couldn’t sleep because the teacher fecking sit in front
of you ergh. But then again, surprise me lord of love my crush got second place
in class and was ordered to sit beside me holy love in the air *sprinkled roses
in air*
And that was it. My love story
ended just like that because my crush got another crush and I moved away to
another state. Some love stories are just pathetic, just like mine.
Love. Love is a powerful word. Can make a person lost his
appetite, can make a person do fatuous things, can make a person forgets his
own misery and sometimes the cause of a person misery. As a normal person,
feeling love is essential in this world. Love is like an element for a person
to stay as a person.
With love there wil be new life, and with love too can end a
person’s life.
Depends.
on a person’s definition of love.\
Some might say that “if you love her, then you let her go”
while some say that “if you love her get her”
Love is a beautiful thing.
Sometimes, it pains me to see
that because of love some people choose to end lifes, some choose to be bad.
When love turns into something evil, it is no longer love it is called
obsession. When you love something, you wouldn’t have the heart to hurt it.
Expectation.
You want other people to love you, to see the
beauty in your flaws, to see perfection in imperfection, to feel the
butterflies when they see you but
then again
do you love you?
People cannot love you, unless you learn to love yourself.
You need to be proud of who you are. You can shine no matter what kind of a
person you are as long as you accept yourself.
I know loving who we are is not as easy as we thought
because we know what are our weaknesses, what are flaws, what things that bring
us down but as long as you endure it you will be fine. I know. I have been
there.
LOVE.
Assalammualaikum dan hai .
hari ni aku decide nak update entri .. ye sekali lagi ..hihi ..actually takde story pun cuma aku nak share satu lagu yang banyak bagi aku kenangan waktu kat sekolah lama aku dulu ... bagi aku lagu ni memang awesome .. walaupun macam lamaa sikit dia punya muzik tapi boleh tahan laa kan.. hehehe ..
such a feelin' comin' over me
thhere is wonder in most everything i see
not a cloud in the sky got the sun in my eyes
and i wont be surprised if its a dream
everything i want the world to be
is now coming true especially for me
and the reasons is clear
it's you are here
you're the nearest thing to heaven that i've seen
im on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
and the only explanation i can find
is the love that i've found
every since you've been around your love
put me at the top of the world
something in the wind has learned my name
and its telling me thats the things that are not the same
in the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
there's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me
there is only one wish on my mind
when this day is through i hope that i willfind
that tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
all i need will be mine if you are here
im on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
and the only explanation i've found
is the love thatt i've found
every since you've been around your love
put me at the top of the world.
p/s : kbai .. :)
magically first time met,
becomes a forever friendship,
for a few seconds ,
we becomes friends, its all standard that sometimes,
we fights,
but it doesnt break up our friendship,
now we separated, because of destiny,
and how would i forget you,
cause you're always in my mind,
far from each other,
a thousand miles away,
like it was impossible for us to met
what i hope now,
that you wont ever forget me,
because you're always in my mind..
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| BEsT frIenD foREvER !! |
assalamualaikum.....
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